I USED to think....NOW I think...

Last year created a lot of changes in our lives, but most importantly it changed our thinking on many things that you don't even think about until you HAVE to think about it!  It took a long time to knowledge this but we have come to the conclusion that positive thinking is the only thing that is going to move us forward.  Negative thoughts just boggle your mind and confuse important decisions that you need to make!

 So here you have it....

I used to think...

• Dirty dishes in the sink HAD to be clean before I went to bed.

• I would be done having children by the time I was 30.

• Having three boys would be a dream come true.

• I didn't need to loose weight, I would just get pregnant.

• Having a miscarriage was unheard of.

• Sleeping in the same bed with your husband seven days a week was CRAZY!

• If I surrender all my worries and fears to God, he will take care of us.

• Getting pregnant was as easy as 1, 2, 3...

I Now Know...

• Dirty dishes in the sink are not only normal but completely acceptable.  Life happens and if this is the biggest problem happening in our house I think we will be OK!  I even let the decorative throw pillows lay on the floor OVER NIGHT if I don't have time!  Jason LOVES to throw them all over the house just to see what I will do...ugh he is just like a child

• Thirty is NOT that old and I will have children when it is my time.  We shouldn't put timelines on things that are outside of our control...it only leads to heartache and frustration.

• Three kids....let alone three boys...what was I thinking!  Boys are dirty, smelly, play contact sports that would probably give me an ulcer and take many more risks!  (Ok who am I kidding...I'd take a boy if that was what God provided us with) However, I would be SOOO thankful and blessed if God provided us with one child...but my heart would REALLY like at least one girl in my life:)

• If only loosing weight and changing your diet was as easy as getting pregnant.  I have recently started a Beach Body Challenge group and I cannot tell you how happy I am that I made this decision. It is hard to step out of the box and do something that you know is going to be hard...but in just three weeks I have lost 10 pounds and several inches!  This has been a HUGE lifestyle change but I can already tell that I am happier, healthier and sleep SO much better.  My new motto is...If I'm not going to be pregnant than I'm going to at least have a rocking body!

• Most people don't think a lot about miscarriages or even talk about them until they have had once.  Since this devastating occurrence in our life I have learned that I am not alone in this journey, a matter of fact...Up to 25% of all normal pregnancy's end in a miscarriage and many reasons are unknown as to why this occurs.  Since then I have learned that it is no ones fault and there is nothing you can do...your body is such a mystery...we cannot begin to understand the reasoning for things such as these.  I do however believe in the medical community and fully rest assured that through their assistance and God's blessing normal pregnancies can happen in most people.  If you have been one of those people that have shared their pregnancy difficulties with me....THANK YOU.  Your words of encouragement and honesty have been more than appreciated. 

• As of January 2014 Jason has been on a new shift at work.  He now works 12-8 with a change in the near future to 7-5.  I was used to sleeping in my king size bed ALONE...I was not ready for this change...I am a bed hog...especially the blankets!!  However, now that this change has happen I can't imagine it any different and even am a little sad that he is gone for two weeks at D.A.R.E. school and I don't have him home to snuggle up to!

• Getting pregnant has been a journey for Jason and I...it defiantly has not been as easy as 1, 2, 3.  We have had our up's and down's and each month hold onto the possibility of a positive pregnancy test or further testing/medications or more medical appointments.  Some months are hard and others are easy.  When others announce their pregnancy some are difficult some are joyful.   We would NEVER want someone to feel that they are not able to share this joyful and exciting news with us simply becuase we are struggling to get pregnant....we WANT to be apart of your journey just as we know you will be when it is our turn!    While there are months that we feel like pregnancy consumes our lives...we WILL NOT LET IT DESTROY US!!!   We continue to hang on to the fact that this is all in God's hands...he will provide for us if we trust in him.  We daily refer to this passage: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving, present your requests to God" (Philippians 4:6)  God knows our hopes and dreams and has a plan for our family!  While it is extremely difficult to not be able to see the path he has paved for us...we continue to trust in him!  THANK YOU ALL for the continued prayers as continue to embark on this journey of life.  All things can, and will be done, in Christ who gives me strength!
  

Blessings my friends....we LOVE you all!